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Total: 1 book

- The Institute by Stephen King. Blew through it in a day. Very Stranger Things-esque. 

Short stories: 52 total

- Civil Peace by Chinua Achebe;
- Africa Emergent by Nadine Gordimer;
- The Collector of Treasures by Bessie Head;
- Shingles by William Faulkner;
- The River by Flannery O'Connor;
- The Life You Save May Be Your Own by Flannery O'Connor;
- A Stroke of Good Fortune by Flannery O'Connor;
- Where I Live by Kurt Vonnegut;
- Cloud, Castle, Lake by Vladimir Nabokov;
- Scenes from the Life of a Double Monster by Vladimir Nabokov; 
- The Enormous Radio by John Cheever;
- I Stand Here Ironing by Tillie Olsen;
- Sonny's Blues by James Baldwin;
- Ghost Bird by Nic Pizzolatto;
- The Man of Adamant by Nathaniel Hawthorne;
- Young Goodman Brown by Nathaniel Hawthorne;
- The Conversion of the Jews by Phillip Roth;
- Everything That Rises Must Converge by Flannery O'Connor;
- Nineteen Fifty-Five by Alice Walker;
- A Temple of the Holy Ghost by Flannery O'Connor;
- Amy's Watch by Nic Pizzolatto;
- The Prussian Officer by D.H. Lawrence;
- Who Will Stop the Dark by Charles Mungoshi;
- 1987, The Races by Nic Pizzolatto;
- Two Shores by Nic Pizzolatto;
- The Striding Place by Gertrude Atherton;
- A Rose for Emily by William Faulkner;
- The Last Feast of Harlequin by Thomas Ligotti;
- The Dachau Shoe by W.S. Merwin;
- Spiders I Have Known by W.S. Merwin;
- The Approved by W.S. Merwin;
- Postcards from the Maginot Line by W.S. Merwin;
- In Bed One Night by Robert Coover;
- Sucker by Carson McCullers;
- The Siege at Whale Cay by Megan Mayhew Bergman;
- The Artificial [HP Lovecraft's Cat] by Flannery O'Connor;
- Between Here and the Yellow Sea by Nic Pizzolatto;
- Fingerprints by Justin Bigos;
- Happy Ending by Kevin Canty;
- Fountains in the Rain by Yukio Mishima;
- Pigeon Feathers by John Updike;
- A Circle in the Fire by Flannery O'Connor;
- Will You Please Be Quiet, Please by Raymond Carver;
- By the River by Joyce Carol Oates;
- The School by Donald Barthelme;
- Moving On by Diane Cook;
- Traveler's Joy by Noel Coward;
- A Late Encounter with the Enemy by Flannery O'Connor;
- Emergency by Denis Johnson;
- The Priest and the Acolyte by Oscar Wilde;
- Bride by Julia Elliott;
- The Big Cat by Louise Erdrich. 

I discussed most of these already. The ones I read in the latter half are:

The Artificial [N word] by Flannery O'Connor -- excellent short story, not really a justified title. It follows a (white) grandfather and the grandson he takes care of. Both resent each other, but the grandson is ultimately far more moral... The grandfather takes him to the city, where he plays a mean trick on him, then publicly denies that the kid is his, even though everyone can see their faces are copy-pasted from each other. The shame of this moment is overwhelming for him, and the fact that his grandson forgives him anyway leaves him shaky and uncertain. 

(The title comes from a racist lawn jockey-type statue they see on a rich person's lawn after the grandpa's betrayal; the boy has been giving his grandpa the silent treatment, but when he sees this statue, they're both amazed and can't puzzle out why anyone would want an "artificial" ... well...)

Between Here and the Yellow Sea: The most interesting Pizzolatto so far. This one is narrated by a young man who has agreed to help the high school football coach locate--and even kidnap--his adult daughter. The young man had a crush on her in high school but never dated her, and he knows that the girl ran away as a teen and is now a porn star. He unquestioningly agrees with the old man that his daughter needs "rescued," maybe deprogrammed. But when they make their way to L.A., where she lives now, her reaction to her dad implies something very seedy, and the young man is unsettled, unsure of himself, has to reconsider his own motivations. 

Fingerprints: A very lyrical, poem-y story told in vignettes, all centered around a complex father-son relationship marked by alcoholism and mental illness. Hard to describe but worth the read. 

Happy Ending by Kevin Canty: This one I loved. An older guy lost his wife years ago, and now his daughter has moved out of the house and is in a state far away. In his loneliness he seriously considers visiting a happy-ending massage parlor. It goes against his morals but he reflects that his morals were never really decided upon by him, himself, anyway. So he goes, he loves it, and at the same time he tries out the Christian singles group, and at the same time he assesses and re-assesses whether these massage parlors are harmless after all, with no easy answers.

Fountains in the Rain by Yukio Mishima: A young man breaks up with his girlfriend. Not because he really dislikes her, but because he's never broken up with anyone before, and he wants to try it. Really, that's the whole reason he dated her to begin with--to break up! But when he tells her, she bursts into tears, which embarrasses and annoys him. And the tears grow, and become ever more absurd, and his feelings change to panic, to ecstasy, to madness...

Pigeon Feathers: My favorite non-O'Connor of late August. Rivals "Sonny's Blues" by James Baldwin. It's by John Updike, and it's really a simple story of an adolescent whose faith in God is shaken in a very mundane way--by reading that atheists exist in one of his mom's books--and is further shaken by the realization that everyone around him (parents, classmates, pastors) believe that heaven/hell aren't literally real. At the end, he hunts pigeons at his mother's request, and the description of the feathers is so detailed and beautiful that you'll feel like you're on shrooms.

A Circle in the Fire by Flannery O'Connor: A great little story. A cautious, even cowardly old woman who believes strongly in good maners is troubled by the appearance of three rascally, disrespectful boys on her farm. They follow no rules, no social norms. They take over her farm, torment her animals, steal and damage property, and eventually even burn her farm down. It's awful, it's so grimy. It's also weirdly awesome to read. 

Will You Please Be Quiet, Please by Raymond Carver -- guy gets cheated on, has a menty b about it, goes for a long walk. Really quite good. 

By the River by Joyce Carol Oates -- girl does some cheating, leaves her husband AND her lover AND her baby about it, gets murdered. 

The School by Donald Barthelme -- Short, surreal, very conversational. A teacher tells you, quite casually, about the escalating waves of death in his elementary school classroom, starting small (plants) and moving up to absurd, grotesque human deaths.

Moving On by Diane Cook - Interesting, kind of Margaret Atwood-esque short story in a not-very-fleshed out dystopian world. Widows and widowers (maybe also divorcees?) are not allowed to remarry freely; instead they're sent to halfway homes where they must take classes to improve their value (for instance, knitting, cooking, makeup lessons) and the caretakers will show their files to prospective brides/husbands who are for some reason free on the outside. One recent widow is advised to suppress her grief entirely and forever, and fails to do so. 

Traveler's Joy by Noel Coward - a vain, elderly twink/actor meets a lonely hunch-backed spinstress. They have sex.

A Late Encounter With the Enemy by Flannery O'Connor - maybe my least favorite story of hers so far, just didn't grip me as much as they usually do. It follows an elderly ex-Confederate whose mind has largely left him, and whose daughter or granddaughter is parading him onstage for her college graduation. 

Emergency by Denis Johnson -- LOVED IT. Vignettes, hysterically funny and super moving, about E.R. employees who steal drugs from their patients and go on terrifyingly bad adventures. 

The Priest and the Acolyte -- attributed to Oscar Wilde. Not a very good short story in terms of writing mechanics. Also not very good in terms of subject material XD It's about a 28-year-old priest who "falls in love" with his prepubescent altar boy, and eventually persuades the boy to kill himself (suicide pact) when they're caught. This is very much an unabashed pro-pedophilia story, there's no other interpretation. It's very bald-faced. 

Bride by Julia Elliott -- reminds me of Benedetta, the movie about gay nuns, and Immodest Acts, the book it’s based on. It follows a young nun at the start of the Black Plague who punishes herself fiercely every morning (flagellation, self starvation) but is also becoming enamored with a new sister, an Irish girl with wild hair. When the Abbess dies of plague, the POV character and her crush break into the Abbess’s tower and feast on her hidden cache of delicacies, some of which shocked me although off the top of my head I can’t think of any reason these delicacies shouldn’t exist back then—marzipan bunnies, almonds. Almonds? Anyway it’s a great vividly written story about ascetism, masochism, quarantine, sexuality and the devil, with an abrupt but memorable ending where the devil arrives in the flesh.

The Big Cat by Louise Erdrich — sad and moving and funny. A married man suffers through his wife’s snoring, which sounds like a buzz saw or a wild cat. All the women in her family snore ferociously. When they eventually get divorced, he gets a good night’s sleep for the first time in years, but his teenage daughter starts worrying that she’ll never find love because she snores too. 

My favorites for the second half of the month were Pigeon Feathers, Emergency, A Circle in the Fire, and Happy Ending :) 
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Edit to Add: These stories come from the following collections, and if you have any questions about a particular story, let me know!

- 100 Years of the Best American Short Stories
- Best American Short Stories 2015
- Other Voices, Other Vistas
- A Good Man is Hard to Find (Flannery O'Connor)
- You Can't Keep a Good Woman Down (Alice Walker)
- American Gothic
- Between Here and the Yellow Sea (Nic Pizzolatto) 
- Different: An Anthology of Homosexual Short Stories
- Welcome to the Monkey House by Kurt Vonnegut

Civil Peace by Chinua Achebe -- so far, this is the only one I really didn't care for. I found it kind of ... puzzlingly simplistic. He may be the type of author that excels with long-form fiction and not with short-form, but I'd need to read more of his short stories to determine that, and this piece really didn't convince me to read more! I was disappointed especially because I loved Things Fall Apart, which I just read earlier this year. (The plot of this one is just that a man survives war only to be robbed and maligned by his fellow citizens in the post-war years). 
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 July 12: Lee Cronin's The Mummy (total stinker);
July 12: They/Them (total winner, fuck the haters, this movie rocks and I'm not saying that ironically);
July 14: Drive (so severely not my cup of tea);
July 15: Thelma & Louise (CHARACTER ARCS?? REAL CHARACTER ARCS? I can't even remember the last time I witnessed this);
July 19: Obsession (adore);
July 19: Knock at the Cabin (better than I expected; based on a Paul Tremblay book I didn't care for, but it was still better than the movie, which erased all of Tremblay's delicious ambiguity and angst);
July 20: Ed and His Dead Mother (Steve Buscemi very yummy in this);
July 21: Drowning Mona (favorite comedy of all time);
July 25: Song Sung Blue (cute, sad, generally feel-good in that all the characters are good people and you feel good rooting for them);
July 25: Wind River (ass);
July 28: Avatar Aang: The Last Airbender (really beautiful animation, kind of shit writing, but not offensively bad);
July 29: Murderers' Row (fun campy 60s spy comedy);
July 31: The Drama.

They/Them and The Drama are tied for my favorites of the month, although obviously Thelma & Louise and Drowning Mona would win, were they not rewatches. 

Well...actually, hell, The Drama might beat them both anyway. It was delicious. Robert Pattinson and Zendaya are about to get married when they indulge their friends in a drunken game of "what's the worst thing you've ever done." Each person tells a story about a real-world, tangible harm they've done, ranging from cyberbullying to spousal abuse to, basically, attempted murder of a mentally handicapped child. They tell these stories jokingly and mostly without shame or judgment. But Zendaya, who goes last, cops to planning a mass shooting when she was 15. Unlike the others, she didn't actually DO anything, and no one was harmed ... but they definitely react as if she carried the damn thing out XD

It's a very black comedy, wrapped up in the sexiness of guns and the disturbing nature of shootings, friendship drama taken to comical extremes, with a super touching end. Also, although it starts out fairly simple (Zendaya didn't actually DO anything! Why are they judging her!), it does get more complicated than that, especially because she struggles to explain herself and Pattinson struggles to listen, prefers to make up his own explanations. Like, we do find out that this was far more than an idle, angry thought she had as a teenager--she got deep into school shooting communities online, filmed videos in her shooter-sona, practiced with her dad's rifle, even brought it to school...but also, she didn't do it! The reason she chickens out is because there's a different mass shooting in her hometown before she can strike; it's up to interpretation whether the aftermath gave her perspective/empathy or whether she just lost interest because someone else got there first, and it wasn't as cool anymore. 

They/Them was universally panned, to my memory. It's got rotten ratings on every review site and I remember seeing intense backlash online, from both anti-woke types and queer people. I found it charming and really competent, writing-wise. Also funny as fuck, and Kevin Bacon is chilling as the conversion camp counselor--rather than go full stereotypical, Bacon's counselor is a hippy-dippy, peace-and-love California Christian who assures the queer campers they can be themselves, they don't have to become straight if they don't want to. But it's definitely not that simple... He plays games with the campers psychologically, tortures them physically, tries to turn them against each other, etc. For example, and this is from early in the film -- Bacon splits the campers up, girls in Cabin A and boys in Cabin B. As the kids shuffle off, one androgynous kid stays behind and asks, "What about me?"

Bacon praises the kid for their transition and honesty, and tells them they can stay in the boys' cabin. The kid seems surprised and a little pleased by this, which is your first clue that they're AFAB and transmasc (I couldn't tell personally, I had to wait for the movie to tell me). So, although Bacon is technically not respecting the kid's nonbinary identity, he's still respecting that the kid isn't female. But, a few scenes later, a girl from Cabin A takes a shower alone and is caught by the camp counselors, and outed as a trans girl. She's forced into the boys' cabin and commanded to wear boys' clothes from now on, and to go by her deadname. Kevin Bacon lectures her and explains this isn't because he disrespects her transition, but because she wasn't honest with him... UGH! Very creepy, realistic. Hated it. 

I had only one criticism for this movie, and it's about the ending. When the killer is revealed, there's a fairly typical "join me!" "never!" discussion between them and the protagonist. Didn't mind that, thought it was better-written than most such confrontations. But I WAS majorly disappointed that the killer is subsequently caught and arrested XD I had really high hopes that they would get away and continue demolishing homophobes up and down the coast. I think the "join me!" "never!" discussion would seem less judgmental if the "bad guy" was permitted, narratively, to continue her reign of terror.

Not that killing people is righteous. Obviously you are allowed to judge murderers. But this is FICTIONAL murder, which means the argument is not actually "is it okay to kill" but "is it okay to fight back against bad people." It's fine for the protag to say, "I don't want to fight back like that," but it's a little seedy for the villain to get punished for disagreeing. Let fictional murderers roam free 2026. 
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 Total: 10 books

-- The Nickel Boys by Colson Whitehead;
-- Fashion Beast by Alan Moore;
-- Bad News by Edward St. Aubyn;
-- In Tongues by Thomas Grattan;
-- Night Flight by Antoine de Saint-Exupery
-- The Orange Eats Creeps by Grace Krilanovich;
-- The Summer Fun Massacre by Craig DiLouie;
-- Jimmy Stewart and his Poems by Jimmy Stewart;
-- The King in Yellow by Robert W. Chambers;
-- Meddling Kids by Edgar Cantero.

No short stories this month! The three worst/most disappointing books this month were Meddling Kids (a semi-reread), Summer Fun Massacre (still rated fairly high), and The Nickel Boys. The Nickel Boys was my first Whitehead experience and it wasn't impressive enough to prod me toward his other work; I think it suffered from something that was no fault of its own: I read The Reformatory by Tananarive Due first. The issue here was not that they cover the same basic setting/plot, I knew that going in and was eager for it; the issue was just that Due did it better in every aspect, and I couldn't help comparing The Nickel Boys to her work and getting mad that one got far more attention and accolades. The prose itself was very dull in comparison to Due; the dialogue was often stilted/inauthentic; the character arcs were unsatisfying and seemed poorly thought out to me; and the narrative often took on a distant, academic tone at the worst moments, which made it feel like Whitehead got nervous and fell back on research, rather than writing with passion. 

Meddling Kids is a book I picked up when it first came out. I read the first two chapters and was deeply turned off by a Reddit-style "I'm so badass" speech one of the main characters gives. It's been sitting in a spare room for years, finally picked it up again and read it all the way through. It's a Famous Five/Scooby-Doo/Lovecraft mix, where the kids are all grown up, the dog is dead, and Cthulhu lurks in the background. It tries very hard to be funny, but I don't think many people would be laughing; the humor's just very strained and a bit lame. It has some incredibly poorly-timed twists, but it also has some good points--namely, the protagonist and the villain. Andy (George from Famous Five/Velma from Scooby-Doo) is a fun protagonist for the most part. Butch, ex-con, ex-airman, quick-tempered, struggling to be the new leader of the group since Fred is dead. The villain (it's a spoiler) is fun for being trans multiple times over--started life as a woman, transitioned to male, lived that way for a few centuries, transitioned back to female lmao. I also genuinely dug the villain's casual way of speaking; during her big Villain Speech, she just keeps yapping the same way she did before we got the villain reveal, and her motivation for bringing Cthulhu back is basically just, "Shit, I've lived a long-ass time, man, I wanna see something new."

Summer Fun Massacre was better than I thought it would be, but I expected it to be REALLY bad, so that's not saying much! I'd still possibly recommend it as a fun beach read. It plays with the slasher movie trope of a bumbling deputy who arrives too late, and is there to wrap the final girl in a blanket and cart her to the ambulance. So, appropriately, the book starts in the immediate aftermath of a summer camp massacre, where the deputy gets a brief glimpse of the killer but fails to capture him. The rest of the book is more mystery/thriller, with some genuinely creepy moments, where the deputy unravels the town's dark history, discovers a century's worth of cyclic massacres hidden from the public, and works together with a prior Final Girl to stop the killer. Some folk horror vibes, some Stephen King's IT vibes. 

Three favorite books of the month were In Tongues, The Orange Eats Creeps, and The King in Yellow.

In Tongues: Very new, expert writing, really impressive. Follows a young gay man in 2001 as he moves to NYC and strikes up a strange, narcissistic-mirroring relationship with an older gay couple. The protagonist's flaws are deliciously written; Grattan makes you relate to them even if you've never done anything like it in your life. And there's some excellent shit in here about aging, reflections, rebirth, ego, etc.; Rich said it reminded him a lot of Hinduism, but I've forgotten the main thrust of that conversation. 

The Orange Eats Creeps is more experimental. Stream-of-consciousness, repetitive but lyrical, maybe nonlinear but tough to tell how much. It loosely follows an unnamed teenage girl who has run away from foster care in the PNW and taken up with a gang of grungy guys who call themselves vampires. There's a great, heady swirl of drugs and psychic powers and metaphor in here that makes it impossible to describe what happens. Essentially, the girl is looking for her foster sister, Kim, who may already be dead; but there's also so many excellent detours and visions and flashbacks. BOB from Twin Peaks is here, the Donner Party is here, a serial killer named Dactyl is here and might be every single person she meets, or might be her...

The King in Yellow was VERY fun. I was under the impression that this was the precursor to Lovecraft (I mean, it definitely is) and that that meant it would be chock-full of tentacle gods. I'm not a big fan of tentacle gods so I always avoided it. But I gave it a shot and to my relief there are no tentacles in sight; it's a collection of interconnected short stories, about half of which are horror (the other half are romance and/or literary drama), with a common motif which is a mysterious play called The King in Yellow. This play is so beautiful that it drives its readers insane and has never been performed. 

I also started reading Richard Chizmar's true crime pastiche this month, and read a good chunk of The Boondocks comic collection. 
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Total: 22 books

- Demon Copperhead by Barbara Kinsolver;
- Death in Venice by Thomas Mann;
- Naruto Vol. 4-18 by Masashi Kishimoto;
- Naruto: Konoha's Story-The Steam Ninja Scrolls Vol. 1-2 by Masashi Kishimoto;
- Home Far Away by Teki Yatsuda;
- The Man from the U.S.S.R. & Other Plays by Vladimir Nabokov;
- Uncle Tom's Children by Richard Wright;
- Bloodline by Ernest J. Gaines. 

Short Stories: 8

- Python's Kiss by Louise Erdrich;
- The Whole World Knows by Eudora Welty;
- Those Are as Brothers by Nancy Hale;
- That Will Be Fine by William Faulkner; 
- The Cracked Looking-Glass by Katherine Anne Porter;
- Babylon Revisited by F. Scott Fitzgerald; 
- Haircut by Ring Lardner;
- My Old Man by Ernest Hemingway.

To go through the short stories real quick:

Short Stories )

OK, for books:

Manga )
Books )
Lesbian romance that is clearly Taylor Swift RPF )

To explain why I think this is Taylor Swift RPF:

The two main characters are Juliet Jacobs (Taylor Swift) and Darcy Kincaid (possibly Charli XCX). Juliet's backstory is that her mom married a rich stepdad when Juliet was young, and he poured money into her music career, allowing her to release a bombshell debut album at 17. Juliet started out in country and was known as America's country sweetheart before she hit her early 20s and tried to swerve into artsy folk-pop. After these albums were panned, she tucked her tail between her legs and returned to country, to much acclaim.

Darcy, meanwhile, is a trailer trash kid from a tiny town, whose mother struggled with addiction and eventually abandoned her. She's been working odd jobs while working on indie music with her half-sister and best friend. After years of hard work, festival circuits, competitions, etc., Darcy and co. finally self-produced their debut album. It was such a huge success that their band actually beat T-Swift for Best Album of the Year. Juliet is so furious to have her comeback stolen that she says some very nasty things about Darcy to the press, and it starts a media feud between them that results in both artists writing diss tracks about each other. 

There are some passing attempts to make Juliet likable by hinting that her stepdad is a big old meanie, but it's really not working for me when the shit she says about Darcy early in the book is so heinous, and when Darcy's responses are so mild. Especially when Juliet's comments are like, "You're trailer trash, you're a slut and you're only famous because trashy guys think you're sexy, you're a high school drop-out who pretends to be smart, you don't have any talent of your own, you literally worked in a bowling alley last year lol" and all of that is obviously tied up into Juliet's extreme privilege as the child of a rich-ass rancher who's been mega-famous since she was a kid. This could have been evened out if Darcy's comments were similar, but her comments were shit like, "Critics didn't like your last two albums," and "You're famous for being sweet and pure so what do you know about my sex appeal or lack thereof." The narrative treats these comments like they're just as bad or worse than Juliet's, which is grating. Give Darcy from real teeth, first of all. And give equal weight to both characters' reactions instead of treating Juliet like a fragile princess who needs to be protected from the mean trailer trash girl, and Darcy like a tough-as-nails ADHDer who just gets riled up irrationally because she needs more Ritalin. 

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 Oh, also, Dad and Rich went to church this morning and the whole sermon was a response to the local Pride event lmao. The pastor said you can't be a Christian AND attend Pride, complained about the "weak feminization" of the church, and spent a long time talking about how Jesus is a sword for the deep-throated congregation to swallow. ????. This was accompanied by an illustration on the pamphlet of Jesus with swords shooting out of his mouth. Rich and Dad have both sworn to me that "deep-throated congregation" were the actual words the pastor used.

I guess we solved that mystery from a few weeks ago regarding who interpreted the vicar's sermon right, me or mom. Amado 1, Mom 0. 
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May 09: Death to Smoochy
May 10: Primate
May 23: Motocrossed!
May 27: The Birdcage

I also watched Conclave multiple times but didn't mark the dates, probably somewhere between Primate and Motocrossed!

Thoughts: 

Adored "Death to Smoochy," one of my new faves. I'm such a simp for Danny Devito films, and this one was right up my alley. Objectively I can see that it's too long, but I don't care, and I have no other criticisms. The dark sense of humor was perfect for me, loved Robin Williams as Rainbow Ralph. Rich is a huge Ed Norton fan, so it also appealed to him, since Norton plays Smoochy.

Primate was decent but flawed, and the flaws are mostly personal gripes that won't apply to everyone who sees it. First of all, I used to be completely obsessed with ape language experiments, so I was a little miffed at this movie for its "the chimp only attacks because of rabies" plotline; I guess I expected more of a commentary about the abuses common in these programs, more of a real-world consequences vibe. The other gripe I had was that I found the main character totally insufferable XD And dumb! But I can forgive "dumb" in a horror movie. I found all the other characters much more likable, generally decent people, so it was painful to watch them all die while the main character limped on. It was notable, imo, that the main character was white, and all (or most?) of the side characters who died were people of color. That's a racist faux pas you don't see as often in movies these days, so it was a bit startling. 

Side note, do y'all remember that ultra-racist KKK character from the Final Destination movies? The one with the race track? He's from my city. Our claim to fame. 

Motocrossed!: This Disney Channel Original Movie keeps getting mentioned in gay essay collections I've read, and every time, I'm like, "UGH, I WANT TO WATCH THAT!" It's a loose Twelfth Night retelling. Andi and her twin brother Andy (I know) are both talented motocross riders, but their dad will only let the male Andy race. When Andy breaks his leg just before the start of the season, Dad goes on an international hunt for a new rider, while Andi chops her hair and takes her brother's spot, incognito. I like it far better than other genderswap movies like She's the Man and Just One of the Guys. Andi's switch is way more convincing than She's the Man, imo, and the acting and humor all struck me as more competent/skilled. Overall, honestly, this was like shockingly good for a DCOM. (I had a moment of envy when I told my mom about it and she knew the entire plot. GIRL how were YOU watching this 2001 cable-TV movie when we didnt have cable in 2001? And I never saw it?? But it was a good bonding moment. Mom loves genderswap sports movies.)

The Birdcage: Streamed this with Yani. I think this was my first rewatch as an adult; I was obsessed with the movie as a kid. It hits better now, believe it or not, and of course there were tons of jokes I get now that I didn't get at age 9 or so. The last time I tried to rewatch it as an adult, I was in my early 20s, so I was smack-dab in the middle of that ultra woke stage a lot of Millennials went through, and I couldn't enjoy the film; I was too busy disapproving of casting choices and "stereotypes" that the Internet told me to be mad at. 
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Total: 12 books

-- A Study in Emerald by Neil Gaiman;
-- The Hounding by Xenobe Purvis;
-- The Last Report on the Miracles at Little No Horse by Louise Erdrich;
-- Rotten Tommy by David Sodergren;
-- The Toughest Indian in the World by Sherman Alexie;
-- Tracks by Louise Erdrich;
-- Conclave by Robert Harris (reread);
-- Don't Let the Forest In by C.G. Drews;
-- Love Medicine by Louise Erdrich;
-- The 2000s Made Me Gay: Essays on Pop Culture by Grace Perry;
-- Semi-Well-Adjusted Despite Literally Everything by Alyson Stoner;
-- Demon Copperhead by Barbara Kingsolver.

Short Stories: 2

-- The Gay Old Dog by Edna Ferber;
-- Brothers by Sherwood Anderson. 

Thoughts )

Short stories:

Both of these are early 20th Century Chicago stories with similar vibes -- loneliness, unfulfilled romance, death. Both exquisite. Ferber's story is packed full of wry humor, whereas Anderson's story takes a more lyrical, poetic approach. It's got his signature plain, monosyllabic style but makes brilliant use of repetition and looping, so that it feels like a song. Despite this, I'd probably recommend Ferber's story over Anderson's. For sure, she's less well-known, and I think her story is overall just easier to melt into. It follows an old man-about-town named Jo who seems to have it all--booming WWI-era business in saddles and halters, tons of money and fine things. But it weaves back through his early years, when the business was failing and he was taking care of his younger sisters, and details his failed romance with a young woman. The ending is a fantastic little punch. He reunites by chance with the woman he loved. They both happen to be at a parade for soldiers going off to WWI, the same war Jo is profiting from. She's furious, and crying for her son--her son, not Jo's--but Jo sees him in the crowd, recognizes him, and forgets the boy isn't his. 

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 April 1: The Mothers of Plaza de Mayo;
April 1: Joe Dirt;
April 02: Bring Her Back;
April 03: Louis Theroux: Inside the Manosphere;
April 04: Throw Momma from the Train;
April 17: Dear Evan Hansen;
April 17: Five Nights at Freddy's 2;
April 17: Finders Keepers;
April 18: The Ballad of Songbirds & Snakes;
April 24: Y2K;
April 24: The Pope's Exorcist;
April 24: Crawl;
April 30: Whale Rider.

Favorites for this month: Whale Rider, Y2K, Throw Momma from the Train, and Bring Her Back.

Whale Rider was for class and is undeniably the best of the films I watched in April lmao. So fucking good. I wondered why we were watching the movie instead of watching the book, but then I bought the book on Kindle and it's just not very well-written so far. I keep picking it up, reading a chapter or two, and then getting weary. But the movie is fantastic. 

Finders Keepers was fun. Horrible movie from like 2008 about a haunted doll. Marina Sirtis is in it, though; she's a crazy cat lady who gets murdered by a little girl. 

I was surprised by how much I still liked Joe Dirt as an adult. I think I only like the worst comedies. If it's got bad critical reviews I'm gonna love it. 

For the horror movies, brief thoughts:
1) Bring Her Back. Sleek, horrifying. Commentary on foster care. Gut-churning gore. Creative and fun. Only criticism: why does the mysterious evil voodoo have to come from Russia?? Just feels like thoughtless anti-Slav shit for no reason. 
2) Five Nights at Freddy's 2. More fun than the first one, imo. Not scary at all, but entertaining and fairly compelling. Extra bonus points for getting the Scream duo back together, and extra extra bonus points for casting the guy from that one Netflix horse show that my ex-wife said looked like me. He is creepier than ever in this and unfortunately looks even more like me when he's being a creep. 
3) Y2K. SUPER FUN. Funny, gory, quick, cute. I loved this??? I expected it to be a hate-watch??? It was so fun. Definitely recommend. 
4) The Pope's Exorcist. Rich loved this. I will withhold judgment. (No I won't, it sucked). 
5) Crawl. Neither of us liked THIS shit. Oh my god, this has to be the dumbest horror movie protagonist I've ever seen, and I'm usually immune to dumb protagonists -- like I never understood it when other people criticized a movie because the protagonist makes "dumb" decisions...but this... it follows a champion swimmer who gets trapped in an underground crawlspace with her dad just as a hurricane is coming in. Gators fill the crawlspace. Stupidity ensues. I was yelling myself hoarse. 
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 Total: 8 books
--So Long, See You Tomorrow by William Maxwell;
--The Only Good Indians by Stephen Graham Jones;
--The Round House by Louise Erdrich;
--Reservation Blues by Sherman Alexie;
--Nineteen Minutes by Jodi Piccoult;
--The Barracks Thief by Tobias Wolff;
--The Testaments by Margaret Atwood;
--The Reformatory by Tananarive Due. 

Short stories:
-- A Drug Called Tradition by Sherman Alexie;
-- Matchimanito by Louise Erdrich;
-- Na Na and Other Nazis by Irvine Welsh;
-- Victory on New Year's Day by Irvine Welsh;
-- Ceremonies by Sherman Alexie (poem);
-- Country Lovers by Nadine Gordimer;
-- The Termitary by Nadine Gordimer;
-- The River by Flannery O'Conner;
-- A Good Man is Hard to Find by Flannery O'Connor. 

Essays:
-- First Things First, Petersen (analysis of feminism in Things Fall Apart);
-- Decolonizing Culture, Katrak (feminism and anticolonialism);
-- Under Western Eyes, Mohanty (ethnocentric universality in Western feminism);
-- The British Indian Writer, Salman Rushdie;
-- Dream-England, Salman Rushdie;
-- You Will Always be a Paki, Hanif Kureishi.

The only book that I didn't LOVE-love is the William Maxwell novella, and even that was very good. It was published in the 80s and tells the story of a murder between friends/farmers, from the perspective of a boy who was himself a friend (briefly) to the murderer's son. Very good, great prose, and there's commentary about class and change that explains why it's a classic. I just didn't super connect with it, so it didn't become a favorite. I felt like I was at a bit of a remove. 

Reservation Blues was probably my favorite of the month, and is now one of my all-time favorite books. It follows characters from his short stories (and also Smoke Signals if anyone here has seen that) as they form a band using a cursed guitar they borrowed from the undead legendary blues singer Robert Johnson. Round House was also fantastic, and I'm now on a Louise Erdrich reading binge. Weirdly, although I didn't like it *as much* as Reservation Blues, I do like her better than Alexie *as a writer.* And Alexie is also one of my faves, has been for like 15 years. 

The Only Good Indians was good but not great; I think the sequel is gonna be more my taste, it comes out later this year. I got the sense that Graham Jones really struggled with his first draft and didn't do enough editing to hide that. The first half stalls out, then leaps forward in startling ways that don't fully make sense or feel coherent. The second half is smoother. It indulges, sometimes, in cheesy 80s slasher homages that don't really fit the overall tone. 

The Reformatory was stellar. Instantly recced it to my mom, and she blitzed through it as well. It's a horror book set in the South in the 50s or 60s, when a 12-year-old Black boy named Robbie is sent of to the local reformatory. There he encounters the sad, frightening, untrustworthy ghosts of Way Too Many Dead Boys, and the seedy, abusive headmaster who has a liking for little boys. There's some excellent twists and really devastating deaths; the prose is excellent, the dialogue is on-point, the character arcs are delicious, it's scary as hell... 10/10 horror book. I tried to read Ring Shout right after this (different author, but a lot of the same people who recced Reformatory to me also recced this; I ignored them because I didn't think a KKK horror novel could be done tastefully. Reformatory proved me wrong) and was immediately put off because, like Reformatory, it's written in dialect, but unlike Reformatory, it sounds really forced and artificial. I'm gonna still try to finish it but it's dropped several spots on my list and I think I'd rather just explore the rest of Tananarive Due's books instead. 

The Barracks Thief was great, and very similar to Maxwell's novella. It's also short, it's written in a similar style. But I connected with the characters and themes way better. It follows three young soldiers who are stationed together in North Carolina, waiting to ship out to Vietnam. The other soldiers have largely come and gone to Vietnam already and have formed an exclusive brotherhood that makes the newbies feel inferior. One of them starts stealing from his fellow soldiers at night, and a witch hunt ensues. 

The Testaments was mostly great, but also a little silly at times, and occasionally felt rushed. I gave it a high 4 out of 5. The majority of the criticism I saw was just, "We didn't need a sequel," and I??? guess??? If you don't want a sequel you don't have to read it, but like, the author clearly felt she had more to tell. I thought I would enjoy the scenes that take place in Gilead best, and would be bored by the scenes in Canada, but ultimately I found all of them equally compelling, I just thought it fell off at the end, kinda like Atwood lost interest in the home stretch and just wanted to wrap things up as quickly as possible. I found the interview at the back even more interesting than the novel; Atwood details her research process there.

Nineteen Minutes: not much to say here. I saw it on a list of banned books, and I'd never read Jodi Piccoult before so I decided to give it a try. Fun, compelling, but bloated. A fun time capsule of 2007. Zigzag parts and problematic jokes. An understanding of mass shooters that has fallen out of favor in 2026 (bullying victims in 2007 vs. privileged fascist misogynists who are upset they didn't get riches and hot girls by age 16). 

I liked all the short stories, especially Matchimanito. For the essays, the first three feminist essays hurt me head. The rest were fun, readable, informative. Let me ask y'all something: am I wrong to be afraid of Rushdie's novels? I've read two essays and a memoir by him now, and liked them all. But I've always shied away from his novels because they're so massive and I was afraid he'd have a stiff, formal writing style that was difficult to get into. 
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 March 06: There Will Be Blood
March 11: If Footmen Tire You, What Will Horses Do?
March 13: Hamilton
March 13: Little Shop of Horrors
March 20: Drop Dead Gorgeous
March 21: See No Evil, Hear No Evil
March 22: Wicked: For Good
March 22: Zootopia 2
March 23: Zootopia 1
March 30: The Talented Mr. Ripley

Thoughts on each movie, in order

There Will Be Blood: Liked it deeply up until the end. Felt like the end kind of warped the obvious anti-capitalist anti-greed message of the movie. Or undermined it. Wish it had focused harder on the destruction of HW's relationship with his father, rather than his father's feud with Eli. At the same time I loved Eli and would have been sad if he never came back. 

If Footmen Tire You: Very funny Christian propaganda piece I watched with the boys. Grindhouse schlock. 

Hamilton: Don't come for me. I genuinely enjoy Hamilton. I hate Lin-Manuel's voice but I love this musical. 

Little Shop of Horrors: Absolute banger, fucking love it. I've had people tell me, "You need to watch this movie, you'll LOVE it" since I was a kid but I never get around to it. Periodically people show me clips (like, after I got my wisdom teeth removed by the military in a torturous no-meds dentist visit, my friend Lopez showed me "I'm a Dentist") and it's gotten to the point where I think I've seen the whole damn movie, just out of order. Watched it with Rich and adored it. 

Drop Dead Gorgeous: Madelgard recommended this one. Dark comedy about small-town beauty pageants. Favorite joke was at the very beginning: Home of the World's Oldest Living Lutheran. 

See No Evil: Richard Pryor/Gene Wilder buddy comedy that reads as very gay. One of Rich's favorites since he was a kid. 

Wicked: For Good - yeah, no, I had fun. 

Zootopia 2: I thought this was awful until I rewatched Zootopia 1. Then I realized they're both awful, but Zootopia 2 wins because it actually made me laugh several times. 

The Talented Mr. Ripley: Finally succeeded in watching this. I've tried before and was so turned off by Matt Damon's and Jude Law's performances that I couldn't finish it. The performances didn't seem as bad to me this time (but they did seem bad to Rich, who's never tried to watch this before) -- and I was able to watch it the whole way through. Enjoyed it a lot. Very different from the book, but in ways that don't really change the story, and DO help adapt it from book to film. Biggest difference is Ripley's personality/motives. The movie rehabs him a little, makes him less dark ... up until the end, at least. 
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 Total: 11 books

- The Big Sleep by Raymond Chandler;
- This Boy's Life by Tobias Wolff;
- The Six Loves of James I by Gareth Russell;
- In the Garden of the North American Martyrs by Tobias Wolff;
- The Real Cool Killers by Chester Himes; 
- The Trial of Charles I by C.V. Wedgwood;
- Annie John by Jamaica Kincaid;
- The Talented Mr. Ripley by Patricia Highsmith; 
- A Light Amongst Shadows by Kelley York;
- Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad; 
- The Ox-Bow Incident by Walter Van Tilburg Clark. 

The worst book was easily "A Light Amongst Shadows," but that feels almost unfair to say. It's a Kindle Unlimited gay romance. It comes very close to being ... like, built for me. Historical gay romance? Love it. Creepy boarding school, incest, CSA -- FUCK yes. Ghost children? Favorite horror trope. Yes please. 

But no, it didn't work. Biggest problem was with the character voice. It's told in first-person by an upper-class teen living in 1870-1880, but he speaks like a modern-day teen who happens to be a teaboo and is desperate for his classmates to think he really spent the summer in London. Other big problem was that it didn't really work either as a romance or as a horror. Like, the horror element definitely took the backseat to the romance, but the romance itself was insta-love, so it wasn't interesting enough to justify side-lining the horror so much. (At one point, the main character casually tells us that he's been seeing ghosts every day and just didn't think to mention it). 

Tobias Wolff really dominated my month. Really love his books. I downloaded a third book of his, a novel, but got distracted by a sudden strong desire to read about British kings. So James I and his son Charles took over the rest of my month. The thrillers and mystery novels are for my Detective & Mystery Lit class, and I enjoyed most of them, but couldn't really get into Raymond Chandler (I like his writing on a sentence/paragraph level, but I think structurally he struggles). 

Annie John was excellent. Definitely the strongest novel I read all month. The Ox-Bow Incident was fun, but dragged BADLY in several spots. It follows a cowboy in 1885 who gets swept up in a lynch mob, and goes along with it despite his conscience screaming not to; much of the book concerns the men who DO speak up, and why they do it, and how they fail. The actual lynching scene is long -- detailed enough to be deeply uncomfortable but not gory. And there's a mean, depressing twist at the end that crushes one of the few good men even further. But it's a twist that feels necessary. Because right away, the characters with consciences start blaming the lynching on a scapegoat, a very easy scapegoat -- a wealthy rancher and ex-Confederate named Tetley. They convince themselves they had no way of stopping the mob because Tetley is just a monster; he loves cruelty and violence; he has no feelings. Then they find out Tetley has killed himself, and their excuses and justifications are swept away. 

It feels cruel, like the author's decision to do this feels cruel, because the character most affected by Tetley's death is also the only guy who actively tried to stop the lynch mob. But I do think it's necessary, because that character might have done more than anyone else, but he still allowed it to happen. He admits he thought of ways to stop the mob and refused to take them. And three innocent men died as a result. 

Anyway. Very fun book. Haven't seen the movie yet. 
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 January: 

Jan 16: Black Phone 2, rollicking good fun, absolutely hilarious, new favorite horror movie. When the Grabber came out on his sinister little ice skates I fell in love.
Jan 17: American Psycho, fav. Finally made Rich watch it.
Jan 18: Longlegs, which I love but STILL doesn't stick in my memory after multiple rewatches. I'm astonished to see it here and realize I've rewatched it that recently. 
Jan 31: What Lies Beneath, with Harrison Ford and Michelle Pfeiffer. Ghost movie. Very long and a bit tedious at times but I'd still call it a bit of a forgotten gem. The way Ford is written as an abusive husband is perf, and to me at least it reads like real lived experience from the writer. 


Feb 04: Bomb Hunters, documentary on Cambodian scrappers.
Feb 04: Iron Lung, Markiplier's new movie.
Feb 06: Shadow Magic, Chinese film from 2001-ish about the introduction of silent films to China.
Feb 08: John Carpenter's The Fog.
Feb 16: Blades of Glory, yeah the ice skating movie with Will Ferrell. Unabashed fan of this film. The real Yuri on Ice.
Feb 19: Power of the Dog rewatch. FFFFFUCK it's so good.
Feb 20: South Park: Bigger, Longer & Uncut. Genuinely, the musical sequences are so skilled. 
Feb 22: 8 Seconds (the Lane Frost story).
Feb 24: The Endurance (documentary)
Feb 27: The Quick and the Dead - the made-for-TV HBO Western with Sam Elliott, 1987. Not the Sam Raimi one from 95. 
Feb 27: This Boy's Life, AMAZING EXPERIENCE watching this with my dad and listening to him giggle at all the sad parts. 
Feb 28: Dead of Winter. Not fantastic but worth a watch. Basic thriller with admirable pretensions to art. 
Feb 28: Talladega Nights: The Ballad of Ricky Bobby. Yuri on Asphalt. Did NOT remember the fully passionate French kiss between Sacha Baron Cohen and Will Ferrell at the end. 
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Total: 12 books

- The Mystery of Edwin Drood by Charles Dickens;
- Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe;
- The Maids by Jean Genet;
- Deathwatch by Jean Genet;
- In Memoriam by Alice Winn;
- Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov;
- Half His Age by Jennette McCurdy;
- The Pumpkin Spice Cafe by Laurie Gilmore;
- The Catholic by David Plante;
- The Power of the Dog by Thomas Savage;
- Close Range: Wyoming Stories by Annie Proulx;
- Translations by Brian Friel.

Deeply, deeply liked most of these. Unusually hard to pick a favorite for this month because almost all of them were excellent. I'll just highlight the exceptions, and the ones I feel are worth raving about. 

Thoughts )

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Forgot to tell y'all I was in the car with my mom WEEKS ago driving to her house and we had this conversation.

Mom: Have you heard that song, uh, what's it called? "Massacree?"
Me: Massacre?
Mom: Massacree...
Me: Is it metal?
Mom: "Massacree" something, "restaurant..."
Me: "Alice's Restaurant?" By Arlo Guthrie?
Mom: Alice's Restaurant Massacree! By Arlo--
Me: Guthrie
Mom: Arlo Guthrie.
Me: Yes I've heard it.
Mom: You know he was Woody Guthrie's brother?
Me: Son.
Mom: Do you know who Woody Guthrie is?
Me: I know Arlo was his son, for example
Mom: But have you heard the song?
Me: Yes I Have Heard The Song
Mom: The 30-minute version?
Me: Frankly I do not like the 2-minute version so--
Mom: (opens Spotify)
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Total: 105 books

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Absolute favorite of the year: Jean Genet's Our Lady of the Flowers. 
Honorable mentions: Dykette, Mapping the Interior, The Darker Proof, Zombie Pit, I Look Divine, Goodbye to Berlin, and Mother Night. 

Really enjoyed the poems, essays, and short stories I read for the Bradbury Challenge in December, which I was too lazy to list here. Most of the nonfiction I read was informative and helpful, though "Shame-Sex Attraction" just made me weary in the same way Roxanne Gay's collection of essays on rape culture did. 

Books I read significant chunks of but didn't count: A trans man's memoir called "Becoming a Visible Man" -- I was probably 80% through this when the browser I was reading it on crashed, and I never bothered to find my spot again. Can't remember the author's name right now, which is awful, because he's famous in the trans community. Also "Wicked" by Greg Maguire -- really enjoyed it, forgot I owned it, stopped reading. 

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Plus, before I get into this, I wanted to say that A. David stopped by the house yesterday with a wrapped gift for me and Rich, which turned out to be his Christmas mixtape! It's a DVD full of pirated Christmas terror (terrifyingly bad Christmas specials and Christmas-iana, I mean) with a hand-illustrated cover and a cheeky warning on the back. 

He also brought in some unexpected packages from the front porch. And then he had to zip off to work, so we didn't chat at all XD But the packages were a fun surprise. One was a Gargoyles trade paperback that I didn't order, don't know why it was sent to me -- I assume something went wrong at the Gargoyles comics Kickstarter and I got sent a free extra as a mistake. The other was a huge box from Madelgard, full of wrapped presents and a birthday card that cracked me up (my favorite part was where she pasted an Andy Warhol Christmas tree painting, and then a picture of Warhol himself, with a speech bubble addressed to my very long nonsensical email address). 

The gifts she sent me were so on-point and hilarious -- an erotic Mr. Burns-themed zine called 742 Evergreen Ter., a Simpsons Treehouse of Horror mystery figure (Mr. Burns and Homer sharing the same body), and a hardback copy of "Desperate Passage" about the Donner Party, one of my favorite historical tragedies and something I love to read about during the winter. She didn't even know that, she just correctly assessed my vibes. 

Rich and I ended the night by rewatching It, Chapter 2, which was oodles of fun. 
TE Lawrence, Gu Cheng, Carol Emshwiller )

Tiptree, The Tenants, The Fates ) 

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Questionnaire )

I go way off topic here and it's all about Stranger Things )

Anyway, the tl;dr here is that I'm fully down the Byler rabbithole and I'm making it all of youz problem. It feels like a Public Service Announcement: SURPRISE, this Internet friend has been secretly a Stranger Things fan the whole time, and is now even more insane about it. I'm even half-assed plotting a Byler fanfic, and like I said, they're not even my favorite characters T__T
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I got a little messed up on Days 4-5 because of going to Michigan with A. David one day, then working all day + going home to my parents' the next. But I still did my best XD

Mickey and Minnie, F. Scott Fitzgerald )


The Dark Room, Judas Iscariot )

Upstream, The Elephant Man, Yuki Tanaka )

A Hanging, The Yellow Bird, Glamor on the West Streets )

Writing off the Subject, Rattlesnake, There Shall Be No Darkness )

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